Notice The Worry

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                                                                     The Worry Tree


With fibromyalgia, I often say I’ve become a worry tree.

Always rooted in fear. Always growing new branches of what-ifs. Always holding more weight than I should.


It’s not just the pain I carry—it’s the thoughts that never stop.

And let me tell you, they grow faster than weeds.


I worry about how I’ll feel when I wake up.

Will today be a “good” day or one of those days where simply getting dressed feels like climbing a mountain?


I worry about the future.

Will I ever have the energy to do all the things I dream about? Will people get tired of my “maybe I can, maybe I can’t” answers?


I worry about my relationships.

Will my loved ones understand when I cancel again?

Will they still see me, even when I’m too tired to be the version of myself they’re used to?


I worry about the look in people’s eyes.

That silent judgment that says, “But you look fine.”

As if invisible pain needs to wear a costume to be taken seriously.


I worry about being too much. And not enough.

All at the same time.


But here’s the thing I’m learning…


Worry doesn’t water me—it drains me.


So when I catch myself spiraling, I pause.

And I imagine my worries as little leaves on my branches—each one holding a thought, a fear, a doubt.

And then I blow them away.


I imagine the wind catching them, carrying them off like dandelion fluff.

Letting the breeze write new stories where worry once lived.

Stories of strength. Of softness. Of simply being.


No, it’s not easy. I still worry. I still overthink.

But every now and then, I remind myself that I don’t have to carry it all.


Not every worry needs to take root.

Not every thought deserves a branch.


Some things can be let go—

One deep breath at a time.

One gust of wind at a time.


So if you’re a worry tree too, I see you.

And maybe today, we can both let go of just one leaf—and trust the wind to carry it somewhere softer.

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