Unbearable Pain.
What Helps You When Your Pain Becomes Unbearable?
Coming from a family of alcoholics, I’ve always felt like the odd one out. They love to party, be loud, and argue over the smallest things—things I no longer have the energy for. I’ve learned that some people only pretend to listen, nodding along as if they understand, but when it comes down to it, my feelings are never valid in their eyes. In a narcissistic family, you’re always the problem, no matter how gently you express yourself.
On top of that, I’m the only one in my family living with chronic illness. My immune system barely exists, and I’ve had to make peace with the fact that my struggles will never be fully understood by them.
When my specialist told me to avoid painkillers because they could cause long-term damage, I trusted her. It’s been seven years without a single painkiller—seven years of enduring pain that often feels unbearable. At first, I thought there was no way I’d survive without them, but I did what I had to do.
That’s when cannabis entered my life.
I had never smoked before, but I figured, why not give it a try? Funny story—I coughed my lungs out the first time. But once that passed, something incredible happened. My pain eased. My migraines, the ones that made me want to bang my head against the wall, suddenly weren’t there. I remember sitting in silence, asking myself, Where did they go?
I’m an honest person—I say what I mean, and I don’t allow people to treat me poorly. That honesty extends to my doctors. Each one of them knows about my THC use, and surprisingly, they all support it. They’ve seen the benefits it brings me, and so have I.
Cannabis doesn’t just dull the pain; it gives me a few hours of relief, a window where I can actually do something—clean the necessary parts of my home, eat a proper meal (which is huge for me, since I rarely feel hungry), and think clearly. That awful fibro hangover feeling I used to wake up with every morning? Gone.
I don’t drink, but I have nothing against alcohol. Life is about making choices that work for you. For me, cannabis has been a game-changer. I’m not here to judge anyone’s choices, and I don’t expect everyone to agree with mine. But if you’ve been searching for something—anything—to make your pain even slightly more manageable, know that there are options beyond what the world tells you is “acceptable.”
At the end of the day, we’re all just trying to survive in the best way we know how.
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